Growing Old

When do you realize your a dinosaur and everything you worked hard for
your whole life seems unimportant to the world?


I am a writer, and know a lot of things thanks to research and college study.
But for some reason all the talents I've learned over the years is vanishing
so quickly, due my age and technology.

I have so many ideas, stories and articles I want to share. Unfotunately, now there's no call for these stories. Book Publishers, Newspapers and Magazines always will use the younger crowd and never hiring anyone in their fifties. Don't believe me, have a grandparent, friend or somone who is older and see if they get hire at a newspaper office. Pass clipping to prove I have worked in a newspaper office doesnt mean anything. All the Editing and Assistant I did at one time is out the door. My job is becoming a dinosaur job.

Unless you work in the health care facitlity or a Professor for a college town forget ever trying to be successful with anything, because you can't. Something always stops me from living my dream. I'm not downing anyone's profession. But, there is more to me than just being older than you.

I married the first time and raised my sons, have work hard my whole life, go to college, uprooted myself from Southern Indiana to move closer to a dieing father and finally remarry again after being with my first husgband over 25 years. I"m not ready to die yet people. I still have some life in me. And just because I'm older doesn't mean that I'm just totally useless. I have alot of education behind me and would like to be able to use it.

I don't mean to sound bitter, but every time I try to put my foot foward to find a career move for myself I get thrown into a corner like I'm not important. I'm just suppose to sit here and have no dreams, feeling or emotions behind me.

Part of me once to give up because no one seems understand. The other part is why can't I have my dream job? I'm not that bad of a writer to be thrown aside like some old shoe. And above all why can't anyone hear me, please?